I'LL NEVER BE

A desperate plea just to be heard in this solitary life

Let myself get in the way, it’s like shooting yourself in the foot

So many missed opportunities had I just been more

Conscious of the place and time when these had gone by

Formulating made up scenarios to help time pass

An easy way to maybe feel less alone this empty world

 

It follows me, not far behind, feeding off insecurities

Dictating every word I’ve said, my tongue and voice are not my own

Degraded, serrated, notched on the inside

I’ll never be that which I hoped, abandon plans on life

 

There’s something more stemming from the core

Beneath it all, the darkness takes it’s toll

 

Inner battles, at war with oneself

Costing so much more than you might tell

 

Possession of ones own thoughts when used against them

Are sure to bring out the worse, and likely to bend

 

Warped perceptions clouded by a truth

Unfactual in natural, but realer than you’d presume

 

Humiliating

I can’t get out’ve my way

Just ignore us, and please forgive what I say

 

A desperate plea just to be heard in this solitary life

Let myself get in the way, it’s like shooting yourself in the foot

Formulating made up scenarios to help time pass

An easy way to maybe feel less alone this empty world

Something’s wrong, yes, this I know. But I can’t shake this.

A loaded gun behind your back, and I’m still waiting for you to show your fucking teeth so I can prove I’m sane.

 

I Provoke Me

 

Wish I wasn’t such a disappointment

But my shadow looms over

Complicates things

Can’t appreciate things

Only seems to bring things to a new low

 

Listen to me this all will pass

The rain will end, this pain will come to pass

Listen to me this all will pass

The rain will end, this pain will come to pass